Beauty of Motherhood

Motherhood can be quite challenging, and a bit frustrating at times. But, I admit, that it is very fulfilling and enjoyable. I didn't expect it to be so much fun and enjoyable, but it is. My in-laws and husband keep telling me that they know I must need a break from my very active little boy. And I do. But, what I consider a break is being able to sleep for 8 hours straight, while someone else gets him back to sleep when he wakes up at 3 a.m. Or having time here and there to fully focus on writing projects. But, I'm comforted by him being near me. Even though it can be exhausting running after him and correcting him and such, I love it because it's part of my job as his mother.

Now he's two hours away with his father who is visiting his parents. I couldn't make the trip, as I'm only about two weeks from my due date. I'm here with my parents in the meantime. And, I miss my baby. I miss his little active, bubbly, happy self. Yes, I'm getting a break, but I don't need a long break from my child. I can't imagine life without him. It wouldn't be as fulfilling and enjoyable, because now that I'm a mother I look at life through a different lens, .

Strangely enough, I have more focus and determination to succeed as a writer and entrepeneur. I take more delight in small things. I enjoy going for walks and watching my baby see the world, and his fascination with everything. Life is just . . . sweeter.

No, motherhood is not exactly easy, but it's definitely something that will make your life and your world more beautiful and exciting.

Leaning on the Lord

I had my baby shower this past Saturday, and I had a great time. It was fun fellowshipping with my family and friends.

I'm excited about my daughter's upcoming arrival, but also kind of scared, because I'm nervous about handling a newborn and a one year old. I'm sure that things will go smoothly, or at least, I pray that they do.

She's due in about two weeks, and my son will be one in four weeks. I definitely need prayer during this time. I just want to be the best mother that I can be, and I don't want to mess up.

I'm getting better at time management, so that's good. I'm learning to go with the flow. What I don't get done with in the morning before my son wakes up, during naptime or after his bedtime, I just have to let that do. Motherhood is the most important priority aside from being a child of God, and a wife. So, I'm learning to just let go, and let God.

I love breastfeeding!

I love breastfeeding, I must admit. While pregnant with my son, I researched breastfeeding and the benefits of it, and I knew that I would breastfeed him. Of course, I heard horror stories from various mothers on the complexities and frustrations of breastfeeding, and how they could only nurse for a few weeks or so, or however long, and they couldn't wait to quit.

Now, the first two weeks were absolutely exhausting to me. I felt like I was nursing all. the. time. But, I loved having him cuddled up beside me while both of us slept peacefully. I took my mother's advice and napped when he napped about twice a day.

He latched on well, so I didn't have problems with that. Sometimes I experienced soreness and such, but for the most part breastfeeding was such a pleasant experience. I loved cuddling up close with him. I loved knowing that my body supplied his nutritional needs. I loved that I could soothe him so easily just by nursing him. Taking care of a baby seemed so much simpler to me. All I basically had to do was nurse him every two hours or so, change his diaper often, and keep him clean. Basically.

Fast forward 11 months. My son will be 11 months in less than two weeks and I still occasionally nurse him. I can't help it. Although I have no milk at this point, because he's basically weaned from my breast, I still nurse to comfort him through the night if he wakes, or during the day when he's in a bad mood. And it still works like a charm.

And, I just can't let go of the joy that I experience having him cuddled near and receiving joy and pacification from me. Luckily, I have a baby coming in about a month, so I can continue nursing with her. To the chagrin of certain family members, and my husband, I'm sure, I will probably still nurse my son for comfort when he needs it. I can't help it. Breastfeeding has been as pleasant an experience for him as it has been for me. I encourage any young mother to nurse, and be open to an absolutely wonderful experience.

Baby decor

Shopping for babies is so much fun. I am so excited about decorating my children's nursery. They will be sharing a room. This weekend I'm getting her crib and will hopefully get the bedding soon. I've already chosen what I want, but I have to save up the funds to get it, and then wait for it to get shipped. I'm excited nonetheless. I've never been much of a shopper. I've just never enjoyed it that much. I considered it a necessary evil. But, from having children, I have developed a love for shopping. There are so many beautiful clothes, shoes, and other things that I really want to get for them.

I try not to go to the malls too much, because then it's hard to stay in my budget. I try to go out only when I have the money to purchase something, and I'm looking for something specific. But, I must admit that I've been guilty of purchasing extra items that were not necessities, but they were so cute that I couldn't pass them up.
I definitely have to discipline myself in this area, or it could get out of hand. But, baby stuff is just sooooo cute!!!

Cute business

Yesterday I discovered a delightful website called Designhergals.com . I had so much fun with it. I love beautiful stationery and am always looking for cute and creative ways to design stationery. This website is a great way to do it. You can send out invitations, announcements, create notepads and other unique gifts by creating or designing a particular woman. You choose the hair, body type, outfit, accessories, basically everything about the woman, you create.

I spent more time than I should have creating the perfect person to go on invitations that I was creating. I was having so much fun. Check it out if you're ever planning an event and want to design creative invitations or just to create something unique and pretty to have around your house.